Erotic Fridge Poetry

I recently purchased the erotic version of magnetic poetry. I have decided to make the poems and one liners that come from that a regular part of my blog. I hope you all enjoy them.


Lust

I crave ache need
if ready boy come
slow tease full of fever
she says take me please
spank bite lick swallow
spurt gush fill shudder
come
she screams
purr
exquisite pleasure

Passion for life

So I've been temping at this new job since the beginning of December. I have interviewed along with a few other candidates for this position. I have a bit of an edge above everyone else solely because I am already here doing the job. Denver is a city chock full of administrative assistants with identical skills so it is very difficult to find a job much less land an interview when you are swimming through a sea of clones. Since I have been here I have been giving this job 110%. I am working my ass off to show what I can do. I NEED this job. In the beginning I wanted this job because I kicked out the loser and desperately need the paycheck coming in. This is still the case, but now that I've been here a month I've found something else. I don't just need this job, I WANT this job. I really enjoy everyone I work with. It's a great team of people that not only care about each other, but about the work they do on a daily basis. I also enjoy the work I've been doing. It's diverse in what I've been doing in the past and I find it interesting.

Yesterday the director of my department and I sat down to discuss the future of the postion that I have been occupying. He told me that I have been the best temp that he has ever worked with. I have been able to come into this postion and not miss a beat. I have gone above and beyond the call of duty and he appriciates the job I do everyday. So after building me up, he breaks my heart (typical man). He says that while I am doing a great job, he and the team are concerned about my committment/confidence level to this job. So they are going to continue interviewing other candidates. He says he wants to be sure that they get the "right fit" for this position. He said that when they were interviewing me that the "light" didn't come on when I was talking about the job. He also expressed concern about my uncertainty about what I want out of life. So they are worried that if things were to get rough in the department that I would just leave because I wouldn't be committed to the job and the people I work with.

Ok. Well, I am uncertain about what I want from life. Everytime I find something that I'm good at or want I seem to get slapped down or discouraged from getting it. I feel beat down by fate right now and I don't know where I'm heading in any direction. I love derby, but my skating isn't great. I want to keep volunteering with kids, but it's hard to find the time to dedicate myself 100%. I want to be in love with a great man, but I'm scared to start something new only to be hurt again. I want to find a job that I love, but I don't know what that career path is for sure.

I do know that I enjoy this job. I have not once gotten up in the morning and not wanted to come to work. Never once while working have I looked at the clock and thought to myself, "Damn, it's only been three minutes since the last time I looked at the clock." I know that I find this position to be interesting, challenging, and fufilling. At this point I could see myself getting a degree in this area and moving up the ladder. How do I express that in a way that they see the "light" come on for me? I can talk til I'm blue in the face, but I can't seem to convince them.

Any suggestions from you, dear readers? My thought for now is to continue working my ass off while they continue interviewing. I figure if I don't give up that should speak a lot to the fact that I want to be here. I looked online today for other jobs just to cover my ass. Out of 143 postings not one sounded interesting enough to make me want to send a resume right now. Yes, I could send out five or ten resumes and probably get a job that would pay my bills. I just don't want that anymore. It sucks to spend so much time on daily basis doing something you hate. *sigh* As usual, nothing I want comes easy for me.

Life is good

Derby practice is going well. It's kicking my ass and I'm exhausted all the time but I love it. The girls are so sweet and so helpful. I feel like the biggest fucking dork on eight wheels right now, but hopefully with some more practices I'll start feeling more confident. Right now every time I skate I feel out of control and wobbly. I have only fallen once or twice (not on purpose) so that's good. I've been doing falling drills, stopping drills, crossovers, scissors, and endurance. My legs hurt all the time but I'm pushing through it and keep going and going. I must say that my ass is looking quite fabulous from all this exercise though. ;)

Aaron worked on my sleeve more last night. He did all the outlining for the new stuff. In a few months he'll do the gray shading and then he wants to do the color at the Denver Tattoo Convention in June. My arm is fucking killing me today. It's swollen and tender as hell. I love the new work though. I'm so glad I don't have practice again until Sunday. I don't think I could take any hits right now. Aaron is one of my favorite people to be around. He makes me laugh and we have a good time together. He also "gets" me which is unusual. He's coming to my RMRG event on Saturday so we should have a good time.

I find out today if I get to keep the job I've been temping at for the last month. I really like it here and the people I work with are great. I'm really hoping I get it. Ya'll know how much I need it right now being on my own. There is a possibility of a roommate in the future so that would be awesome as well. I've been avoiding going home a lot lately (which is so unlike me because I love spending time at home with my dogs) because I hate going home to an empty house. I don't miss the guy, I miss the being with someone. I want to date and meet people but I just haven't been motivated enough. I've had invitations galore, but I think I'm not ready yet. I'm sure he's already moved on and not thinking about me, but I can't help still being a bit sad. Thank Dog for derby! Without it things would be a helluva lot worse!

Let's get down and derby, baby!

So I had my first roller derby practice last night. I have never felt so damn uncoordinated in all of my life. It's been YEARS since I've been on skates and boy did it show. I wobbled my way out to the center of the rink, holding onto the walls for stability. And what was my first drill you ask? Learning to fall. Ummmm, hellloooo people, my plan was not to fall on my ass. All the newbies are falling around me and I just can not bring myself to fall on purpose. Finally our beatuiful trainer, Betsy Blackheart, grabs me by the hand and says, "We are going to fall together so I can help you overcome your fear." So she falls and pulls me with her. Damn! That wasn't so bad, what was I freaking out for? So I spent the rest of practice falling: single knee slide, double knee slide AKA the rockstar, four on the floor AKA doggystyle, and figure fours. I really need to spend some time skating so that I can get more confident on 8 wheels. I really had a blast though. All of the girls were so sweet and really excited that we were all there. I can't wait for practice on Sunday!!!

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING FUCK!!!!

It's been a shitty day from hell. I am so fucking sick of boys right now. I am seriously considering switching to girls for awhile. Gawd damn!!

First, that piece of shit that I just kicked out my house has been up my ass about some mail that he should be receiving here. No matter how many times I tell him that I'll fucking call him when it gets here, he still feels the need to either call me about it or ask someone to ask me about it. I'm about ready to shove that envelope up his sorry ass.

Then, that new boy that I really, really like... well things are a bit tense at the moment. First of all he is completely anti-social to the point of being a recluse. He won't do anything or go anywhere. Which is fine since most of the time I stay home anyway, but he won't even come to my house! However, now with derby starting I am much busier and have a lot more commitments. I invite him to go and he always turns me down, then he gets mad cause I've been too busy to hang out. I told him today that he is making it very difficult to be his friend and if he decides he wants to meet me halfway he can give me a call.

And then, a mutual friend of mine and the ex's is leaving the state. Tonight was his going away party. I hesitated about going cause I knew the ex would probably be there. So my girls called me and kept me posted about his whereabouts. I get the all clear, drive into the parking lot, and he pulls in right behind me. SONOFABITCH!!!!
I stayed five minutes, said goodbye to my friend and left.

I hate boys today.