Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Things I would tell you if we were still friends

I met this really great guy and I am finally getting everything I wanted and more. He makes me smile every day, even when he's being a pain in my ass.

Not only did the 32 year-old virgin finally have sex, she is getting married this fall!

I totally wanted to get you that shirtless Mormon calendar for your birthday. I know how you always talked about corrupting one.

M took a plea deal and plead guilty to Contributing to the Delinquency of a Minor. No having to register as a sex offender and he will just have a couple years of probation. He says he is moving back to FL as soon as he is eligible to have his probation transferred. His latest thing is being "sick" and having to adhere to all these "horrible" rules of probation.


I hope you are healthy and back in tip-top shape.


I do miss talking to you sometimes. I wish things would have gone differently between us. So much has happened and is happening in my life that I have wanted to share with you. I will find myself starting to call you and then remembering that you don't want to hear from me.


I know you are reading here. At first that bothered me because I thought that if you didn't want to be my friend, why would you care what I was doing. Now it just seems normal. Maybe one day you'll reach out, maybe one day I will.


I never intended to not speak to each other again. I just needed a break. Your actions made me feel like I was wrong about everything. I could do nothing right for you. For some reason we had stopped communicating with each other and started talking at each other. It just wasn't healthy for either one of us. I knew that you had support with new friends and would be OK if I stepped back and let you move forward.

I hope that life is treating you well and you are happy.