The Year In Review

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
2006 was definately a year of firsts for me. I got involved with roller derby and won my first ever trophy. I traveled to Canada for the first time. I started bellydancing and had my first ever "dance recital".

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make resolutions. My goals for 2007 are: go back to school, find a job I can be passionate about, get my money in order, and do what makes me happy.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
One derby baby and one Deek's baby.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope, and I hope to continue that trend as long as possible.

5. What countries did you visit?
Canada, eh.

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Mo' money, mo' money, mo' money. And a decent guy would really be a switch.

7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
6/3/06 first ever bout. 12/5/06 new start in a new house.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Roller derby was an achievement for sure. I started something and stuck with it for the first time in a long time. I stood up for myself whenever people did me wrong.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not admitting that I was spending too much in rent and just letting that house go and getting something cheaper, sooner.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Well, my parents didn't name me Grace for a reason. If there's something to trip on, fall over, or stab myself with I'll do it. So let's just say there are too many to list here.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Best deal: plaid mini skirt off ebay with tags, $5.00.
Most extravagent: black satin corset, hand made, $300.00.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Well, it certainly wasn't Britney Spears. Note to Britney: wear panties, shoes and wash your hair.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Close minded individuals that can't see past their own agendas.

14. Where did most of your money go?
I support the national economy by shopping. Target, Torrid, and Ross. OH MY!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Derby of course. And bellydancing. I'm pretty easily amused though, so I get really excited about a lot of stuff.

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Blue October "Hate Me" and Dresden Dolls "Coin-Operated Boy"

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier. Yeah me!
b) thinner or fatter? I think about the same unfortunately.
c) richer or poorer? Again the same, broke as a mafucker.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Living in the moment, saying what was on my mind immediately, and made MO' MONEY.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying for sure. Stressing out about that which cannot be changed. And wasting my time on losers.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Been there, done that. (With family, BTW)

21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Hmmmm. I came pretty close. It certainly hurt when it was over.

22. How many one-night stands?
I plead the 5th.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Lost for sure. For every answered question you get five more mysteries. Although Flavor of Love was pretty good. Where else would you see a chick shit her pants on TV? Rule number 1 in trying to win a reality dating show: Don't poop on the dude's floor. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I certainly know a few more worthless people now then I did then. I don't know that I "hate" them persay, but I wouldn't care if they slipped and fell in a puddle of flesh eating bacteria.

25. What was the best book you read?
I read a lot. It's hard for me to say one book is the best. So good reads this year were: Wicked, Odd Thomas, Night, and I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Dresden Dolls and Hank III.

27. What did you want and get?
Pink IPOD Nano.

28. What did you want and not get?
A job that I look foward to going to and feel that I make a difference in.

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Walk The Line. I watch it once a week.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 28. Damn I'm old. I had a bout, so that pretty much occupied my day. The girls sang to me at half-time and I got sent to spank alley. Good times.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less stress.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
40's and 50's vintage with a bit of a punk flair.

33. What kept you sane?
My BFF, my dogs, my friends, and lots of chocolate.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Joaquin Phoenix. MMM MMM MMM.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The war in Iraq for sure.

36. Who did you miss?
My grandma. Everyday.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
SB, for sure. she makes me smile and listens to me bitch. Thanks for being my "lucky" charm!!!

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
I learned not to hide my feelings because I think the other person won't want to hear it. It doesn't matter what their reaction is, I need to say it and feel better about things. Yes, it is taking a risk of rejection, but it would be worth a few rejections for the day that it gets me exactly where I want to be.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!

I almost forgot this.

After awhile you learn the subtle difference,
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats,
With your head up and your eyes open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads,
On today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight,
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden,
And decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can endure...
That you really are strong...
And you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.

~Author unknown

Drivers Ed. 101

When it is raining outside...

TURN ON YOUR FUCKING HEADLIGHTS!!!!


Thank you.

That is all.

Gratitude Thursday

I was trolling random blogs and saw this and thought it was a great idea... So here are all the "A" things I am gratful for.

Acceptance - From my friends that support me no matter what. It means more to me then you will ever know.
Apple Martinis - Especially the green apple martini at Morton's that is rimmed in cinammon sugar. YUM!
Anti-bacterial lotion - From Bath & Body Works cause it gets the "yuck" off my hands and smells good.
Autumn - I love the changing of the leaves and that bit of crispness in the air.
Air Force - For defending our country and sending my wifey's hubby home in one piece.
Artists - For giving me inspiration and making me think out of the box.
Accelorator pedal - Cause it allows me to pass your slow ass on the freeway!
Accessories - It's what seperates us from the apes.
Apes - For being so damn cute.
Acrylic - Without it I would never have nice fingernails.
Aerosmith - For being so bold as to mix rock and rap with Walk This Way.

Don't make me your accomplice

I seem to attract guys that are unavailable. Whether they already have a woman in their life or just not ready to really be in a relationship, I seem to be a magnet for them.

I have dated my fair share of the "not ready" guy. This is the guy that wants to have all the benefits of being a boyfriend, but is unwilling to put that label on it. He gives this really logical explanation that keeps me hanging on waiting for the moment that he will change his mind and want to take the next step. This never happens. Ultimately, I am just being used for my kind heart and willingness to participate in such a game. If you were to confront "not ready" guy about playing me, he would ferverently deny it. He would say that he has genuine feelings for me and that I have been a willing participant in this little life drama. And when he eventually walks away, he will leave me broken hearted and confused, wondering why I wasn't good enough to be his.

I also get guys that are with someone that tell me how wonderful I am and how "if only I had met you first". Cut the crap. You and I both know all this is about is sex. You will NEVER leave your girlfriend/wife for me. I have never wanted to be the "other woman". I know what it is like to be cheated on. I know what it is like to have another woman make moves on my man knowing that I am in the picture. I refuse to be part of another woman's heartbreak. Yet, I seem to attract these men that try and give me all kinds of stories about how they are currently on a break or trying to break it off smoothly. Bullshit. Call me six months after it's over and then maybe we can talk. Better yet, if your girlfriend is someone I consider a friend, don't ever call me. Friends don't date friend's exes. No, no, no.