People are getting ruder and ruder. What happened to the good ole days when men held doors open for ladies? When people said excuse me when they almost bumped into you? When smiles were returned as you passed a stranger on the street?
Yesterday my day was full of rude people. It all started at work. I went through a door and saw a man with a dolly full of bins. I help the door open for him and he walked through. He said NOTHING. Not even a smile or nod of appreciation. So, pissed off, I loudly said, "You're WELCOME" as I let the door shut behind me.
Later on that afternoon I passed a co-worker in the hall. I smiled and said hello and received a glare in return. This woman has never spoken more then two words to me in the year I have worked here. She looks at me as if I am gum on the bottom of her shoe.
Then I go to the grocery store. This is always a lesson in impoliteness. A few years ago after a long day on my feet in heels I waited for a close parking spot. Apparently this angered a man so much so that as he passed by me walking into the store he called me a lazy fat bitch. I was so stunned and upset I turned around and went home in tears. This time around I was knocked into, cut in front of, and had to wait to get into my car while some woman analyzed the trash on the floor of her backseat.
My grandmother had a large part in shaping who I am. She came from a wealthy European family that was very formal in decorum. I carry a lot of those values with me today. I always say please and thank you, yes ma'am and no sir, and respect my elders. This conflicts with the disrespect I get back from most people on a daily basis. A part of me wants to shout out, "Hey jackass, get some fucking manners!"
Although, because I was raised to be a lady I have a hard time confronting strangers about their rude behavior. It takes a huge rude gesture for me to say something. It saddens me to see my generation and those younger to have so little self-respect. Courtesy says to everyone that you respect yourself enough to be gracious and expect the same in return. I admit that I have my foul-mouthed mean spirited moments. However, it takes a lot for me to get so venomous. For the most part, I bite my tongue so I don't hurt feelings.
The only solution I can present is to keep being courteous. If everyone completed one act of courtesy a day the world could be a little bit better. So next time you are out shopping, give up that close space, hold the door open for the next person coming in, smile as you pass a stranger. It'll make your day better to do so.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Season of Change
I have officially hung up my skates.
I'm sad, but I am really looking foward to making some positive changes in my life. I need to "grow up" and get my shit together. If I am ever going to be ready for Mr. Right then I need to be Miss Right instead of Miss For Now.
So this means I need to pay my bills on time, get rid of my debt, go back to school and get a degree, and take care of me instead of everyone else. I have been thinking about leaving derby for a long time, but I love it and really feel it is something I am good at. When it comes down to my personal goals and my derby goals I need to do what is going to be best for me in the long run. I hope the girls will still call on me occasionally to help out and I plan on going to all the games and cheering them on. I don't want derby to disappear completely. I just need to take what I have learned about myself from derby and apply it to the rest of my life.
So thank you derby girls. You changed my life for the better.
I'm sad, but I am really looking foward to making some positive changes in my life. I need to "grow up" and get my shit together. If I am ever going to be ready for Mr. Right then I need to be Miss Right instead of Miss For Now.
So this means I need to pay my bills on time, get rid of my debt, go back to school and get a degree, and take care of me instead of everyone else. I have been thinking about leaving derby for a long time, but I love it and really feel it is something I am good at. When it comes down to my personal goals and my derby goals I need to do what is going to be best for me in the long run. I hope the girls will still call on me occasionally to help out and I plan on going to all the games and cheering them on. I don't want derby to disappear completely. I just need to take what I have learned about myself from derby and apply it to the rest of my life.
So thank you derby girls. You changed my life for the better.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
The Year In Review
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
2006 was definately a year of firsts for me. I got involved with roller derby and won my first ever trophy. I traveled to Canada for the first time. I started bellydancing and had my first ever "dance recital".
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make resolutions. My goals for 2007 are: go back to school, find a job I can be passionate about, get my money in order, and do what makes me happy.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
One derby baby and one Deek's baby.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope, and I hope to continue that trend as long as possible.
5. What countries did you visit?
Canada, eh.
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Mo' money, mo' money, mo' money. And a decent guy would really be a switch.
7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
6/3/06 first ever bout. 12/5/06 new start in a new house.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Roller derby was an achievement for sure. I started something and stuck with it for the first time in a long time. I stood up for myself whenever people did me wrong.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not admitting that I was spending too much in rent and just letting that house go and getting something cheaper, sooner.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Well, my parents didn't name me Grace for a reason. If there's something to trip on, fall over, or stab myself with I'll do it. So let's just say there are too many to list here.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Best deal: plaid mini skirt off ebay with tags, $5.00.
Most extravagent: black satin corset, hand made, $300.00.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Well, it certainly wasn't Britney Spears. Note to Britney: wear panties, shoes and wash your hair.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Close minded individuals that can't see past their own agendas.
14. Where did most of your money go?
I support the national economy by shopping. Target, Torrid, and Ross. OH MY!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Derby of course. And bellydancing. I'm pretty easily amused though, so I get really excited about a lot of stuff.
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Blue October "Hate Me" and Dresden Dolls "Coin-Operated Boy"
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier. Yeah me!
b) thinner or fatter? I think about the same unfortunately.
c) richer or poorer? Again the same, broke as a mafucker.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Living in the moment, saying what was on my mind immediately, and made MO' MONEY.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying for sure. Stressing out about that which cannot be changed. And wasting my time on losers.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Been there, done that. (With family, BTW)
21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Hmmmm. I came pretty close. It certainly hurt when it was over.
22. How many one-night stands?
I plead the 5th.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Lost for sure. For every answered question you get five more mysteries. Although Flavor of Love was pretty good. Where else would you see a chick shit her pants on TV? Rule number 1 in trying to win a reality dating show: Don't poop on the dude's floor. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I certainly know a few more worthless people now then I did then. I don't know that I "hate" them persay, but I wouldn't care if they slipped and fell in a puddle of flesh eating bacteria.
25. What was the best book you read?
I read a lot. It's hard for me to say one book is the best. So good reads this year were: Wicked, Odd Thomas, Night, and I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Dresden Dolls and Hank III.
27. What did you want and get?
Pink IPOD Nano.
28. What did you want and not get?
A job that I look foward to going to and feel that I make a difference in.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Walk The Line. I watch it once a week.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 28. Damn I'm old. I had a bout, so that pretty much occupied my day. The girls sang to me at half-time and I got sent to spank alley. Good times.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less stress.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
40's and 50's vintage with a bit of a punk flair.
33. What kept you sane?
My BFF, my dogs, my friends, and lots of chocolate.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Joaquin Phoenix. MMM MMM MMM.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The war in Iraq for sure.
36. Who did you miss?
My grandma. Everyday.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
SB, for sure. she makes me smile and listens to me bitch. Thanks for being my "lucky" charm!!!
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
I learned not to hide my feelings because I think the other person won't want to hear it. It doesn't matter what their reaction is, I need to say it and feel better about things. Yes, it is taking a risk of rejection, but it would be worth a few rejections for the day that it gets me exactly where I want to be.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!
2006 was definately a year of firsts for me. I got involved with roller derby and won my first ever trophy. I traveled to Canada for the first time. I started bellydancing and had my first ever "dance recital".
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't really make resolutions. My goals for 2007 are: go back to school, find a job I can be passionate about, get my money in order, and do what makes me happy.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
One derby baby and one Deek's baby.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope, and I hope to continue that trend as long as possible.
5. What countries did you visit?
Canada, eh.
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
Mo' money, mo' money, mo' money. And a decent guy would really be a switch.
7. What dates from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
6/3/06 first ever bout. 12/5/06 new start in a new house.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Roller derby was an achievement for sure. I started something and stuck with it for the first time in a long time. I stood up for myself whenever people did me wrong.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not admitting that I was spending too much in rent and just letting that house go and getting something cheaper, sooner.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Well, my parents didn't name me Grace for a reason. If there's something to trip on, fall over, or stab myself with I'll do it. So let's just say there are too many to list here.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Best deal: plaid mini skirt off ebay with tags, $5.00.
Most extravagent: black satin corset, hand made, $300.00.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Well, it certainly wasn't Britney Spears. Note to Britney: wear panties, shoes and wash your hair.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Close minded individuals that can't see past their own agendas.
14. Where did most of your money go?
I support the national economy by shopping. Target, Torrid, and Ross. OH MY!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Derby of course. And bellydancing. I'm pretty easily amused though, so I get really excited about a lot of stuff.
16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
Blue October "Hate Me" and Dresden Dolls "Coin-Operated Boy"
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier. Yeah me!
b) thinner or fatter? I think about the same unfortunately.
c) richer or poorer? Again the same, broke as a mafucker.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Living in the moment, saying what was on my mind immediately, and made MO' MONEY.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Crying for sure. Stressing out about that which cannot be changed. And wasting my time on losers.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Been there, done that. (With family, BTW)
21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Hmmmm. I came pretty close. It certainly hurt when it was over.
22. How many one-night stands?
I plead the 5th.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Lost for sure. For every answered question you get five more mysteries. Although Flavor of Love was pretty good. Where else would you see a chick shit her pants on TV? Rule number 1 in trying to win a reality dating show: Don't poop on the dude's floor. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I certainly know a few more worthless people now then I did then. I don't know that I "hate" them persay, but I wouldn't care if they slipped and fell in a puddle of flesh eating bacteria.
25. What was the best book you read?
I read a lot. It's hard for me to say one book is the best. So good reads this year were: Wicked, Odd Thomas, Night, and I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Dresden Dolls and Hank III.
27. What did you want and get?
Pink IPOD Nano.
28. What did you want and not get?
A job that I look foward to going to and feel that I make a difference in.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Walk The Line. I watch it once a week.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 28. Damn I'm old. I had a bout, so that pretty much occupied my day. The girls sang to me at half-time and I got sent to spank alley. Good times.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Less stress.
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
40's and 50's vintage with a bit of a punk flair.
33. What kept you sane?
My BFF, my dogs, my friends, and lots of chocolate.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Joaquin Phoenix. MMM MMM MMM.
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
The war in Iraq for sure.
36. Who did you miss?
My grandma. Everyday.
37. Who was the best new person you met?
SB, for sure. she makes me smile and listens to me bitch. Thanks for being my "lucky" charm!!!
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
I learned not to hide my feelings because I think the other person won't want to hear it. It doesn't matter what their reaction is, I need to say it and feel better about things. Yes, it is taking a risk of rejection, but it would be worth a few rejections for the day that it gets me exactly where I want to be.
39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
I almost forgot this.
After awhile you learn the subtle difference,
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats,
With your head up and your eyes open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads,
On today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight,
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden,
And decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can endure...
That you really are strong...
And you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.
~Author unknown
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats,
With your head up and your eyes open.
With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads,
On today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain,
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight,
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden,
And decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you can endure...
That you really are strong...
And you really do have worth...
And you learn and learn...
With every goodbye you learn.
~Author unknown
Monday, October 09, 2006
Drivers Ed. 101
When it is raining outside...
TURN ON YOUR FUCKING HEADLIGHTS!!!!
Thank you.
That is all.
TURN ON YOUR FUCKING HEADLIGHTS!!!!
Thank you.
That is all.
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