And baby makes 3?

No, I am not pregnant. But Cabana Boy's ex-girlfriend is. And it's his kid. And I just found out about the situation this week. So, now you are all probably wondering what am I gonna do about it. Well, it's like this.....

I feel that everyone deserves one major fuckup in a relationship. Things between Cabana Boy and I have been far from perfect. When it comes down to it though we have really been trying to make things work. There are a few issues with him that I have to decide if I can live with, mainly his diabetes. And our moving in together was my way of making a commitment to him to try.

I do feel lied to and betrayed. He is well aware of that fact. He is very sorry he did not tell me sooner and that he chose instead to hide things from me and lie to me. I do wonder that if he could hide something this big, what else is he capable of hiding. The trust in our relationship is gone, and it will take a lot of work on his part to get it back. He had already been working on a lot of the issues we had previously discussed, and so far has really been making the effort to get us back to where we need to be.

My personal policy has always been never to date a man with children. My reason for this stems from my childhood. My father had sole custody of me and went through numerous wives and girlfriends throughout my childhood. Each time one of these relationships ended I was left with a broken heart never to see that woman again. I swore to myself that I would NEVER put another child through that kind of heartache.

However, I have decided at this time to stick by him. We are going to try and get custody of his son (to be born sometime this summer) as his ex and his ex's family are completely psychotic and not a good environment to raise a child in. (So if anyone can refer us to a good family law attorney in the Houston area that would be fabulous.) We need to talk with an attorney and see what can be done. Cabana Boy is going to try and talk to his ex first and see if he can reason with her, but we don't have much hope for that. I truly do empathize for her situation and can completely understand how she feels, but now is the time to stop thinking about herself and start thinking about what is best for her child.

I spent a lot of time agonizing this decision. I know that I am risking major heartbreak, not just if Cabana Boy breaks my heart again, but of losing a child I will have loved as my own. We have discussed this fact and will hopefully be able to come to some sort of agreement if that situation were ever to occur.

The path I've chosen is not the easy one, but I always seem to choose the rough road. Even though that road is hard, I always come out a better person for taking it.